Time

What I need is what's killing me
over and over trying to decide
it used to be the right thing to do
but when time changed so were we
a hope became belief
once you realized it was false and broken
you don't see any other reason to try it again
but time does change perception
it does change people
maybe all I ever need is time
time to heal
to re-shape

The Easier Way Out

I saw your face on the wall

I tried to picture it smile

Then I failed to

It was all blurred out and foggy

I remember the last time I touch it

It was soft and white and everything nice

And it makes me happy and relieve

And sad and melancholy at the same time

I was dreaming of you looking at me

Not with your hand, it was your hair

waving at me good bye

whispering it was too little too late

I woke up wishing it was just a dream

leaving you behind

I'm too tired for another heartbreaking

yet it was the biggest mistake I've done

I've pick the easier way out

I've learnt to give up

Is just another reason to feel regret

And helpless and weak

I'm learning to talk again

I'm learning to feel again

I'm learning to be strong again

And I believe I've waited long enough

To be on my knees for you again

I've regretted the easier way out

Free tour guide in Melaka/malacca

So here it is.

I won't charge you (maybe I will someday if I want to)

My knowledge about Melaka is limited

I know some good place to eat

I know some good place to chill out

You maybe won't stuck in traffic jam

I work in N.sembilan which is 90km from Melaka but I'm free on weekend

I'm doing this on behalf of the generosity of the wonderful people in Melaka.

I will:

drive you with my car. It's a small one. 3 people maximum.

take you from Melaka sentral on the day you arrive.

Get you a place to stay (depending on your budget)

I will not:

Entertain you like you're paying me

take you to places I (or any of my friends) know nothing about

ask you to pay for my food, fuel, etc

take you to bar, club or anyplace to get drunk/ girls

This is not a scam. I'm doing this as a new hobby. contact me through this blog.

ADHD

Gua tengah layan baca wikipedia pasal benda apa tah. link punya link last-last gua sampai page pasal attention deficit hyperactivity disorder atau ADHD.

Predominantly inattentive type symptoms may include:^[29]

• Be easily distracted, miss details, forget things, and frequently switch from one activity to another
• Have difficulty maintaining focus on one task
• Become bored with a task after only a few minutes, unless doing something enjoyable
• Have difficulty focusing attention on organizing and completing a task or learning something new or trouble completing or turning in homework assignments, often losing things (e.g., pencils, toys, assignments) needed to complete tasks or activities
• Not seem to listen when spoken to
• Daydream, become easily confused, and move slowly
• Have difficulty processing information as quickly and accurately as others
• Struggle to follow instructions.

Predominantly hyperactive-impulsive type symptoms may include:^[29]

• Fidget and squirm in their seats
• Talk nonstop
• Dash around, touching or playing with anything and everything in sight
• Have trouble sitting still during dinner, school, and story time
• Be constantly in motion
• Have difficulty doing quiet tasks or activities.

and also these manifestations primarily of impulsivity:^[29]

• Be very impatient
• Blurt out inappropriate comments, show their emotions without restraint, and act without regard for consequences
• Have difficulty waiting for things they want or waiting their turns in games

Lu orang ada masalah ni?

Insyallah

Love And Balls

I've been playing football since I was a little kid. I love the game and actually quite good at it. My history of playing football started when I was still living at kampung. Me and my friends, we played football every day because we were so passionate about it. We were even coloured our shirt with number we wanted. I chose 5. later, I changed it to 11. The number Rokawa Kaede of Slamdunk wore.

Those days were fun. I remember when it comes to friendly match between kampungs, a lot of people will surely come to watch including those makciks even it was just a small match nobody didn't have to care about. I was still too young to join the team so just like everybody else outside the field, I stand cheering our beloved football team with all our heart.

I was 12 when I first got myself my first football jersey (the real one, not the painting job one). Got myself the famous 1o number, the number top striker usually wore. Turn out I didn't played well on the first match with my school team. I remembered I went to toilet for many times because I was too nervous to play.

cool kids play football, not DOTA

Ok so now it's 20 years later. I can't play football as often as I used to. Life got miserably changed. Turn out people grow older and what older people do? they have to pay the bills. It turns out to be money and car and house and shit. No more football games. There are lesser passion in watching football games also.

Sometimes I got fed up with other people who support certain football team. Let see, if you lived in Melaka and work in Negeri Sembilan, you should be able to support any other team compete in the MSL, right? because it is all about the passion for the game. You "felt" the touch between the leg and the ball even you're just watching. You "knew" it is hard for the player to make certain move, even you're just watching. That why we love watching football, right?

Supporting a football club is not about knowing all the players name, the glorious history of the club or all investment and contribution they've made all this while only. That's not passion, that's studying. You love the game first, interested and curious about certain team, and then is when you start digging more information about them.

Too passionate of simply lose the bet?

Well, other people might have different opinion and different reason to play/watch/support football. All I can say is it's not only about 22 guys chasing after one ball. Whoever says that is a dumb fuck.

One day

One day, I'll sell everything
and become a free man
who didn't have to worry about anything in the world
and grow old smiling
I won't give a shit about who runs the government
it doesn't matter anymore
because the world is old enough
it needs a break

One day, I'll see everyone
and feel pity on them
because while they're all running
racing and compete to each other
I'll sit, have a drink and sing
because I don't care anymore
because I'm just too tired

One day, I'll quit my job
it will be you young apprentice turn now
to work hard, to laugh at the boss jokes
to simply doesn't have the time for your love one
and start to lose them one by one
until when you realize it
it'll be too late
and I'll be the one who said wisely
"told you so, son"

One day, I'll start a rock band
and tour around the world
doesn't matter if we're good or not
because I'm too rich to care about what you think
you'll buy my song anyway
because my money will buy you at the first place

One day, when everything doesn't make any sense anymore
you'll follow my footsteps
and become the monk
of my nonsense temple

I wrote this after YM with jelai. I'm so fucked up right now, I need to write something stupid. And you should start to write your penguburanprosa again jelai.